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would you? especially if its repetative,

what constitutes cheating? intent?

 is there any point?

 the stress is making me shift those last few lbs-  a bonus of being heartbroken. what a nightmare!!!

i hate them.. seriously what is the point of them.

 i have them from just below my boobs to almost the tops of my knees. i have them in places wher you just dont get fat??? i dont understand..

 i hate how the look, how they feel, how when i loose weight my skin looks like crepe paper. im 25 with the skin of a 1000 year old.

ive had them since i was preggers with a 10lb baby they bled cause  the skin split, and now they are the bain of my life.. id rather be over weight with smooth skin that the weight i want to be with these marks.

 im fed up of the attention they recieve from strangers if they catch a glimpse if my top rides up a little..and i hate when my partner uses them in an argument. i feel gutted today they look terrible.

just a moan having a bad skin day.

this morning and it said.. 8 stones 8…

 YAHOOOOOOOOOOOOO

 think thats about 5lbs off. if i get 8 more off ill be happy. if i get 11 off ill be oer the moon.

i think im just too used to it.. the crap that is..

i need warm foods that fill me.  so had a warm scone and butter and jam for brekkie.. what a crap excuse

however - going to the gym at lunch to do the cross trainer for 35 mins so hopefully that will burn off some blubber. i think i’ll not be able to eat less or better.. or it will take time for the changes to get in my head. arms are still agony from tendonitus..

 toast and philly light  is rocking . surely it cant be THAT bad for you??  

got chicken red onion and tomato to fill a pita for lunch

then for dinner im having mackral or cod.. i dunno fish anyhoo

is this sounds like a mindless rant - it is. im jusy thinking out loud

after keeping my log for only 2 days - i have realised how disgusting my diet is .. its processed within an inch of its life no wonder i feel shitty..

must try harder toi make the right choices .. convenience my ass.. YUK

Well its finally happened - ive had enought, fed up with my knicker elastic digging in and refusing to buy a bigger size..

 finished my second cream cake in the office and thought why do i do this to myself, no more ill try harder tomorrow, its starts now for me.

I used to be really active danced up to four times a week then after i was done with dancing i was an active mum and loved to chill slamming the tredmill in the gym could train for over an hour - now i just cant be arsed!

whats changed? probably just me? getting older caring less bout my appearance and feeling mumsy

it has to be me  - i used to look at butter and cream and fatty foods and think no my body deserves better - now i just think YUM and ram it in my mouth..

ive only put a stone on and some of you may think that having this amount to lose will be easy - but its not - i had/have a tiny frame and 1LB looks like an extra muffin roll over my jeans.

so it starts now.. right now this second  - and i will get back to me.

i just need to learn how to eat propoer meals again.  cause two cream cakes and a bowl of melon for lunch is crazy talk.

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